how much longer before i can remove this mask that keeps my unhappiness inside? so many things has happened recently and i just can't show it explicitly for fear of troubling others. the chinese say huo bu dan xing. cheem eh. but it does have some elements of truth. as soon as a problem is solved, another surfaces. why am i forever stuck in the middle. i really don't want to lose either of my friends but i can't keep this up forever.
oh no. emath file due tomorrow. oops. actually, it was due like monday but yeah. hehehs XD the past year papers also due tmr. gosh. plus geog wb which is one week overdue, and amath file and ss stuff. i want to go back for prac tomorrow, but no one want to go with me! believe it or not, i'm already beginning to miss handbells like a lot a lot. i really miss the rushing around and working harder and harder towards SYF.
why do i find it so difficult to let things go? it makes my life miserable, but i just cannot forget stuff, and these things realy make my heart really heavy. i'm afraid i will collapse under the weight of the load one day. it's getting too much for me to carry alone. but who can i confide in? someone reliable and willing to listen is really rare these days. sighs.
Jolie: get well soon kays. then we can go makan together!
