omg i so cannot believe that prom is actually over. haha. i'm going to miss you guys D: photos on facebook :D anyways, went to school to change and wait for eugenie. since i was super early, i went to show ms goh what i was wearing to prom because she wanted to see it. then we talked until eugenie came. haha. yup. then went to prom at goodwood park hotel, and mrs choo said i looked good (: shirley was REALLY sad that miss goh didn't come for prom. haha. she spent 5 minutes asking her why she wasn't there. lols. she sounded like she was talking to her girlfriend like that: "it's not so fun without you..." wth. rofl.
real free tmr. maybe i shall stay uo tonight to upload the photos.
17-11-2009
8:51 PM
All endings are also beginnings. We just don't know it at the time.
whoots. i love that book: the five people you meet in heaven by Mitch Albom (: it's an amazing book. other nice books by him that i read include tuesdays with morrie and for one more day. anyways, 2 MORE PAPERS TO GO :D :D :D but then, the end of o levels is also the beginning of a levels. we just don't want to face it now (: kk. gtg study bio le D:
11-11-2009
9:22 PM
09-11-09 aka the day of the dreaded geog paper 2. haha. anyways, once again i created a miracle! whoots (: lols. teachers don't care if i answered the questions correctly lorh, just wanna know if i finished the paper. somehow, life seems so much better since toay was my last major paper :D :D :D anyways, went to swensons at bugis junction with jolie for lunch at 4 plus. wah lao the guy's service damn bad can. got sofa seat then say not available so we had to sit the normal seats. haha. my convo with miss goh is recorded below.
me: miss goh, is SG a LDC? miss goh: SG is an effy (sp?) case. me: huh. but my eg i give SG leh. how? miss goh: aiya nvm one eg only. why you think SG is LDC? me: idk. you say we not DC so i thought should be LDC lorh. miss goh: haha. your life very miserable meh? me: (DUH) haha okay lorh. (rmb-ing sth) oh and don't ever go swensons ah. miss goh: why? me: because the service is bad. the guy don't want to give us sofa seat D: miss goh: ya larh. LDC the swensons is like that one what. haha
wth. i bet she learn from olivia one. as in how to suan ppl. haha. or maybe is sarah :D haha. stupid larhs (i refuse to spell it with a Z) it's so "shingz" (: the qn say sth about LDCs and tourism then i go give SG as eg. damn it.
tmr's chinese D:
09-11-2009
8:41 PM
How could this happen to me. I made my mistakes. I've no where to run. ~
Untitled by Simple Plan. exactly how i'm feeling now... sigh.
I feel... wierd. like something's wrong. just you know, like very uneasy like that. why D: i don't know why but i just have this ominous feeling. hmms. and some more got so many wired things happen to me. like stuff that i don't normally do i suddenly do and stuff that i normally do i don't. AHHH! i shall describe the abnormal stuff i'm doing (fine it's not all):
1. i just screamed "NOOOOOOOOO!" into the phone at someone for no reason. 2. i feel like playing the piano (it's 11.33pm) 3. i'm studying to distract me from the happenings around me. 4. i feel very nostalgic these days. 5. i felt a sharp pain in my chest a while ago. 6. i can't think properly anymore. 7. i keep dreaming of being chased and failing exams. 8. i shall stop listing here cos the rest are for me to know and for you to wonder.
5 more papers. jiayous (:
07-11-2009
10:18 PM
EH EUGENIE. ONE MONTH LATER YOUR BIRTHDAY LEH :D
today was good and bad. GOOD: i finished my lit paper. haha. i walked out of the shaw hall and told ms hu i finished it and she was like "I'm so proud of you" :D BAD: i screwed bio paper so much even if i get full marks for MCQ and SPA i won't pass. D: oh well. anyways, why is it the whole school knows that i usually cannot finish my papers? today after bio, i saw ms ku and our convo's as stated below.
e.ku: So did you finish your physical geog paper? me: yes. EH how you know i don't finish my paper? e.ku: I know all those who don't. did you tell miss goh you finished your paper? me: yes. she said it was a miricle. haha. e.ku: so will you create the second miracle in your human geog paper? me: YES :D haha.
damn it. what did i just get myself into? haha. MS KU IF YOU EVER SEE THIS, I BET YOU LIKED MY PIANO PLAYING RIGHTTTT? :D haha. human geog's on monday...DIEEEE! physical geog so difficult le then human geog bu shi geng can. haha. aiya. LET'S REST TONIGHT FIRST THEN ADD OIL TMR (: sounds so slack but today really no energy le.
anyways, after lit paper today, i was playing piano with olivia and michelle ong came over. then we went to meet kelyn and go jess's house. woohoo! FINE. i crashed. but nvm, we had KFC <3>
kk got to go sleep early tonight because i need to see ms goh abt human geog and she choose to go to school so super early. she was like "tonight you sleep early then tmr wake up at 8 then still can reach school at 10 :D " right. WAKE UP AT 8 LEH. super early can D: FINE. for the sake of my A1 i shall :D
06-11-2009
10:24 PM
whoots :D for ONCE i finished the geog paper (: BE PROUD OF ME, MISS GOH. YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO :D haha. anyways, damn high after that larh... jumping around and just couldn't study. SOOOOOOO. olivia and i went down to far east to eat slice! yay! super duper FAT now larh. i ate slice then the chicken then guava, so much D: anyways, the high-ness has died le...sigh. I SHALL...FINISH THE HUMAN GEOG PAPER TOO! yay :D :D :D :D actually, i felt a shrp pain in my wrist during the paper but i continued writing and persevered and I FINISHED THE PAPER :D :D :D :D woohoo! life is great :D
right. i'm so sick of keeping up this pretense. when can i ever be myself again? i feel like my goal in life is to make others happy. but what of myself? must i be gay in front of others to bring laughter to their lives at the expense of my own? it may sound selfish, but does my happiness not count? like when i felt pressurised before math and geog and chem, i felt like i couldn't let others know and tried to smile and laugh like normal. i don't like to see others sad, but why do i have to pretend to be happy? sigh.
felt really nostalgic yesterday. idk why but i just kept thinking back on the happy moments i spent with handbells, 4GY, 2SE etc. i guess... maybe i'm just entering a stage of depression D: hmms. no one knows. really. actually, no one really knows what i'm thinking and how i feel, or should i say no one cares. and i also don't have the courage to voice my opinions for fear that others would feel hurt or sad or unhappy or depressed or worried. am i just meant to play a supportive role all my life? i hope not.
WELCOME TO THE BLACK PARADE.
04-11-2009
9:23 PM
sigh. today was ss and chem. ss was both good and bad. GOOD: i managed to complete the paper, something i never did. BAD: like Mrs Hee said (albeit discouraging), finishing the paper and passing are 2 different things. chem was... let's just say i studied really hard and i don't want to talk about it la. I told mrs choo about it after the paper and she was like "nevermind then aim for A2 instead lorh" but it like, i want an A1 for chem if not i have to study really really hard for bio to get A1 for that instead which is totally impossible because 1. i didn't intend to study bio and 2. bio is so difficult. so, by hook or by crook, i need my A1 for chem.
wednesday is geog. i hope i get my A1 there, if not i'll have to score super high for lit to do well for combined humanities D: then both maths...sigh....I REALLY WANT MY A1. even though i said i won't think about it anymore, i just cannot forgive myself for the stupid careless mistakes i made. oh well. i hope geog goes well...
