omg why got people so irritating like youu. i've been away from civilisation for so long and then i come back use computer a while you nag like there's no tmr. and then i was going to get a high score and you had to stop me. like wth luhs. i'm human too kays. i can't work all day luhs. need to rest one lorhs. and then you always say what i don't understand why you do things but did you ever try to understand me? no. and then you say don't caompare with ______ but obviously you're comparing me to other people. everytime say "oh other people study from 8am to midnight" like wth. if they want to be robot is their problem. but i'm not going to be one. and then everytime treat ______ so nicely and treat me like i'm nobody. then say you're doing your job as a ______. please luh. mothers are not supposed to be biased luhs.everybody knows that. and then you everytime say i very nice to other people not nice to you so what if that's the case?! it's normal obviously i'll be nice to those who are nice to me. DUH. okayy, i got nothing to say to you le.
haiz...my life seriously sucks luhs. if i knew sec four would be so full of misery i would not have wanted to take o's. i'm really so sick of all these le. i'm so going to give up soon luhs, like seriously. studying is such a PAIN. after o's if i'm still alive i shall burn the books.
anyways, just came back from church camp in mersing this afternoon. i really enjoyed myself there, probably because she had no chance to nag at me to do work. i did work with carol during the free time. why doesn't she ever realise that the more she nags the more i won't study?! on the second day we went to some organic rice plantation thing and i felt really happy during that time. she went back to fetch ______ so i was alone with the rest of the church people and i just felt really free to do whatever i wanted. like if she was there i wouldn't be able to talk to people so unrestrictedly. although she is my ______, there are many things i don't feel comfortable telling her. like i'll rather tell jolie or shirley or miss goh or somebody who i know would understand how i feel. oh on the was back from mersing i saw many proton cars. hahahs. for some reason, i really truly felt joyful during the camp, where i could leave all my worries behind :D
why can't i find someone who can truly understand me and stand with me through thick and thin? why is it that my life must suck so much? many people think i'm a happy person but fact is I"M NOT. if you ask me, i think my life sucks. everyone around me is like wearing a mask and trying to rise above other people. somehow, i think i'm not normal. i feel that no matter what rank one is, the most important thing is still sincerity. haiz, update more tmr. going k-boxing with aunty sau wan :D
