10:20 PM
wth manns. can't people understand that i'm failing geog only because i cannot finish the paper and not because i suck at it? why do people still come and tell me "deborah why are you studying geography again? you study so hard you still fail then why don't you focus on other subjects?" so what, i fail a subject i must stop studying it totally?! hello, if i fail all the more i must study harder right. what kind of shit is this. so i fail bio so i don't study it? then i might as well don't study at all. seriously manns, some people think too much into things and can't understand simple things like speed during exams or lack thereof. WHYYYYYYYY?!
sometimes, i feel like i need someone to talk to but i don't seem to be able to. i mean, i can talk to jolie because i trust her enough but she already has problems of her own so i think it isn't good to bombard her with mine too. then i don't quite understand some of my friends anymore. like they're so inconsistent luh, one moment they're playing and then next they're muggers. it's so unpredictable and i don't like it. i can't confide to the teachers because they're teachers and i'm a student. i can't talk to myself either or else i'll look dumb and retarded. so you see, i don't really have anyone to talk to when i need someone D: ain't my life sadd.
anyways, today was a perfectly horrible day D: i was late for school and it was double chem and when i stepped into class mrs choo was like "good morning. you're very early today." wth manns. so sarcarstic. and she told prefect to book me but i told jephine that i already told the general office and she was like okay and then some person must come and book me. so extra manns. waste paper luh, not like they'll count that booking. then geog we did sketch map and i couldn't really draw so i took kind of a long time and miss goh scolded me :( then chinese was slack as usual. and bio was horrible because i didn't exactly do my homework and amath was the best lesson of the day. then i was damn tired during study camp and wasted a whole afternoon. see what i mean? D:
some people in class are just so irritating like ____-_____ and ________ and ____ and some others. i won't say too much about how irritating they are but ya. the first 2 are just so irritating i can't stand even speaking their names. (qian yi, you know the first one right and cindy knows the second.) lols. kk. i shall go do work now.
14-08-2009
